Day by day...

It's been a while since I posted something...I've been busy! Psych at the VA isn't too much at the moment actually. It's quite entertaining most days and other days its really eye opening at how devastating psychological problems can be. I can say that i DO NOT want to be a psychiatrist but it is very interesting. I just don't think I have the patience to deal with schizophrenia and depression everyday without developing some component of the disease myself. I've been there 2 weeks and I think I have panic disorder from being around some of the patients. It is a cool rotation and I'm enjoying it quite a bit. Especially when I'm told to jump out the window, stop forging signatures, stop being a spy, and to stop torturing the kids. Yes, I have been told by my one schizophrenic patient to do/not do all of the above things!

If there is one thing that I am learning at the VA, it's how terrible the current war is affecting the young soldiers, and that makes me sad. I don't like talking to guys 3 years older than me about their PTSD from when they watched mass casualties. I guess since I'm going to be part of the military, as a doc, its good to know what my potential patients are dealing with. But its still sad nonetheless.

On a lighter note, SOMA is in 2 weeks!!! AHHHHH!!! Freak out mode began again today when I watched the St. Croix 70.3 on TV....idk why, but i got scared! I was doing so well with my confidence and knowing that ready or not, I was gonna do fine. Plus, I never consider myself "ready" for anything...i usually just do it and decide later. I just really need to make sure I have everything taken care of with my bike and prep plans for the tri. This is a big race and i would hate for something to go wrong that I could've prevented because I'm still somewhat of a beginner. So, this next week is going to be my last hammer week of training, I have to make the most of it! I'm really anxious to do the race (not the pain part) and be done with it. It's been building up in my head for so long now, i'm finally ready to conquer it and focus on the next thing!

Funny note: my cousin and I have agreed to try a 1 month trial on yahoo personals together. Mainly to get funny stories at the ridiculousness of online dating, but also to perhaps make new friends in the area. Watch I'm going to manage to find the strangest/craziest guys....story of my life! lol Anyway, I'm pretty much over going out to clubs and staying out late and playing dress up to meet guys. Most of the time the guys you meet out are less than impressive to say the least. Also it could be cuz i'm a lamo and enjoy going to bed at 10pm on sat nights so i can get up and ride in the gorgeous AZ weather or do something else fun outdoors. That is way more appealing to me than being hung over and sleeping till noon. I swear there has to be guys out there that enjoy that....right???

I'm in no real rush anyway, just going one day at a time and hopefully letting things work themselves out. This is one of my favorite songs that in my head right now, of course its on Grey's, not to be girly cheesy again....