Losing my mind...(even more than i have already)

It's Saturday, my Step 2 board exam, my last big exam in medical school, is on Monday. I have been sticking, pretty well I might add, to a schedule I set for myself 2 months ago. I don't do anything training or studying on a regimented schedule so I'm proud of myself for doing that this time. Thus, I am losing my mind now that it is 2 days before the big test!! I am burned out from studying, have the attention span of a gnat (hence my blog posting right now) and would just like to get the dang thing over with!  I'm so over studying that I even stared at my swim goggles for a good 6 minutes straight today thinking of reasons why one side always lets water in but the other doesn't..yea, wow.

Phillip= Sasha

Wish me luck on Monday! :)

Daydreamer...

So time has been flying this month! Last month flew by probably because i didn't ever sleep, was surrounded by the crankiest people ever, and the month was a blurr, like one looong day. My cousin moved in a couple of weeks ago and we had a week to just hang out and explore arizona. She likes AZ a lot and is adjusting to the heat pretty well. I've taken her rock climbing (which she loves), to spin class, yoga, and hiking. So far i think she's enjoying it and still getting somewhat settled. I've spent my mornings on Radiology rotation that entails me reading films/CT's/MRI's/etc for about 2-3 hours and then using the rest of my free day to study. Having the day off would normally be really tempting to go hiking or spend a couple hours climbing or running. Fortunately for my studying regimen and unfortunately for my sanity, it's so dang HOT until about 10pm that the thought of even running a mile outdoors makes me have a heat stroke. I can take the heat pretty well usually, but this heat doesn't even make running enjoyable. I swam the other day and after a few laps I felt like i was swimming in a hot tub...gross. So due to this sub-optimal heat I've resorted to sticking with climbing, swimming, yoga, and spin class this month!

Anyway, I'm excited for boards to be over at the end of the month. July and Aug are going to be big months for me since I'm going to be in Ohio and Texas. I'm trying not to stress too much about these audition rotations, do my best, be myself, and just hope things go smoothly. I know one thing, I neeeeeed to find either a pool, a sweet running route, or a rock gym to make it through the month. So the stress from paperwork, board exams, setting up rotations, filling out residency applications coupled with my "free" time spent studying usually in startbucks or some other coffee shop, has made me somewhat of a daydreamer.  It usually happens when I'm distracted by people watching or taking a short break from reading (LIKE RIGHT NOW) that I start wondering what it would feel like if I didn't have med school, AF, studying, all of these things on my plate. It only lasts a few minutes, but I do try to picture myself and how life would be if I never had/wanted these things. I see a lot of my friends doing things now that I usually say I'll do "one day", I've been saying that for as long as I can remember. Not that I'm not doing anything, but sometimes I do with I had the freedom (AND MONEY!) to pick up and go somewhere for the weekend, or longer, and not feel guilty about how i'm not studying or not reading or how I'll have to watch for emails from med school things.  I'm not complaining really. I chose this and I wouldn't change anything about my life and how it has played out so far. I have met some amazing people along this path that I don't know what I would do without. I just know all of these things, the studying/books/AF/working out/my shenanigans/crazy running around all the time trying to be in 4 places at once...it's me. And really, it's tough to picture myself doing anything else. But it would be nice to actually try out the gypsy life for a short period of time. To take breaks from my daydreaming and adventurous life to study,not the other way around, would be awesome. I'm not sure that I would even know where to start, but I'm sure I could figure it out eventually. But for now, daydreaming on my study breaks will have to be the extent of my gypsyness. :-)

Song that's stuck in my head: Adele-Daydreamer