Studying, working out, and not being awkward!

So I've been sticking to my schedule of working out and studying pretty strictly for the past couple of weeks now. Studying is going well, but I just feel like there's no way I'm ever going to know everything. I wonder if anybody actually gets to the point where they feel ready...I'm not counting on it. I take the test in a little over a week and it feels like even if I had another month, i'd still feel not as prepared as I should be. I just have to get a much in as I can and pray that during the test i'll be able to find the answers...cuz i know there in my head somewhere, it just takes me a while to find them. I have really enjoyed being able to sleep in (until 8am lol) and wake up on my own schedule with no requirements to be anywhere...except for the pool! Some days I just stay at home and study but others i need to get out. I will say this, I never really doubted it, but I've confirmed for myself that I could never work from home...or be a stay at home mom for that matter. Being at home all day makes me lazier than ever. Even if i'm studying, it sucks, i need to be out studying somewhere or doing things. It's nice every now and then to relax at home, but I think i would drive myself crazy. I sometimes complain that i overload my plate with responsibilities and goals and say "there's never enough time to get it all done!" But when I think about it and now that I do have the time...I still don't get it done! So, i'd much rather be running around crazy and accomplish the 8 out of 10 things on my list for the day, than take my time and still only accopmlish 5 things. But that's just me, I sick and enjoy stress. :)

In other news, I have my free personal training session (came free with gym membership) this week. I know i'm pretty out of shape at the moment, but maybe if they can quantify my out of shapeness...i'll just be that much more motivated! I just hope they don't pinch my fat with that pinchy thing for body fat...i have always HATED that thing since middle school and i swear they always pinch way more than they should!!! (well that's my excuse) I'm going on my first ride with Strada Racing Club this Saturday, I'm pretty excited/nervous. I've never ridden with a big group before and knowing me, it could be disastrous. Maybe I should warn the head coach of my klumsiness and gift of ensuring that everything that can go wrong, does. Speaking of my murphy's law gift...i had a sasha moment last weekend! It was actually kind of funny. Went for a ride, 8 miles in got a flat....fixed the flat (took me forever)...realized my pump didn't work....still had a flat...realized i know nobody in tempe that could pick me up (crap!)...asked a cop for a ride home...he said no cuz he had to go get a drug bust...was stranded for an hour and a half before i realzied i had 1 friend in town....i was rescued!!! My early morning workout-so i can study plan only got me a 8 mile ride and sweet bike short tan lines...gotta love it.

Anyway, my week is full of more studying and more working out...oh and figuring how to make small talk. FYI med students (or maybe just me, but i'm sure i can generalize here) are the most awkward people to talk to...unless you talking about squamos cell cancer of the lung or a big test coming up. I have met about 4 guys in the past couple of days around my apartment or at starbucks that have been nice and potential friends (my friend count here is low).....but of course, me being a huge spaz, an incapable of making small talk for some reason. I'm a weirdo and i freeze with this look on my face like i'm in shock that a guy is talking to me lol. Or maybe its just that they catch me at bad times??? (doubtful) Either way, i need to practice on being a normal person again, able to have normal conversations with normal people...not about medicine! That's my plan for the week. I'll let you know how it goes!